1 year ago on May 27, 2012

"It’s more than a slap in the face, in a knife in my back, because you’d rather believe some made up rumor, then what you knew to be true."  - Hannah Baker (via sur-vived)



2 years ago on March 29, 2012

klaineandbrittanagleek:

I’m so happy to say, that today is a good day.

I havn’t been happy in a long time, not properly smiling all the time, heart feels warm and fuzzy happy. Then a month or so ago I had 2 operations, one that turned from minor into my body being opened up, organs sliced up and moved about. I was in complete agony, the worst pain I have ever been through, and not only that, but I was in a very dark place.

It’s been 3 weeks now since the second operation, and I can finally say I’m on the mend. But not just physically. Being so ill taught me some amazing things.

You don’t need people who don’t need you.

People will always change, but don’t ever let them change you.

Dreams are worth dreaming. I know in my heart that one day I will become a writer, and despite the people who constantly explain the hundreds of reasons I will fail, I will keep dreaming, keep working and achieve my dreams.

I don’t need the approval of others. I have dyed my hair back the way I liked it, I’m wearing my super hero shirts and vans, my skinny jeans and my eyeliner and no matter who tells me I look silly or ridiculous, I’m going to carry on. I will do what I want, wear what I want and be who I am. I’ve been pretending for far too long, and I think it damaged me more than I can explain. Living a lie is damaging and I wish I had seen it sooner.

Life is short. It sounds obvious, but in truth it is. It is also something so important I learnt. I’m trying to live everyday to its fullest, enjoy everything I do and try new things. I’m excited to get up in the morning.

Memories fade, wounds heal and it does get better. I have a wall in my room (The photo) and I have had that I’m Not Sad Today paper sitting ready to put up along with my other amazing memories since I heard about it. I wanted to put it up there when I could actually say it to myself when I woke up in the morning. Today is that day.

I’ve never been so happy, I’ve lost friends over this period of time and it actually feels like a weight off my shoulders. I believe everything happens for a reason, and maybe this is why this person was allowed to hurt me so badly, because now I’m finally able to say, hand on heart,

I’m Not Sad Today :)



2 years ago on March 27, 2012
explodingtardis:

I’m Not Sad Today.And yes, maybe there’ll be stress and dark days to come because of exams etc. But I know that there is always this group of people who are with me every step of the way, no matter what; these amazing friends who are just so rfdhurgdudgr - I have no words for how amazing they are. And maybe, if I just realised this more often, the world will seem as bright as it seems today. 

explodingtardis:

I’m Not Sad Today.

And yes, maybe there’ll be stress and dark days to come because of exams etc. But I know that there is always this group of people who are with me every step of the way, no matter what; these amazing friends who are just so rfdhurgdudgr - I have no words for how amazing they are. And maybe, if I just realised this more often, the world will seem as bright as it seems today. 



2 years ago on March 26, 2012
singingthroughthestorm:

I’m not sad today.
This photo is so cheesy, but I don’t even care that I look silly, my hair’s a mess and I’m wearing scruffy clothes. Plus I never smile with my teeth, so that’s gotta be a good thing, right? I’ve been following the INST blog for a while now and I love it, so I thought that today I would make my own contribution :)
I’m not sad today because although I look a little creepy, I look genuinely happy. I’m not sad today, because after hours of work, I’ve finally finished that damn history coursework, and I’m actually quite happy with it. I’m not sad today, because I had a heart to heart with my best friend, and I know that she’s always going to be here for me, and I love her for that. So much. I’m not sad today, because I took part in a choir competition last weekend, and we watched the videos back today, and it actually sounded really, really good. I’m not sad today, because the holidays start next week, which means I get to relax and do nothing for a while, hopefully without worrying about any exams or school work. I’m not sad today, because I’m going out with my friends to the cinema on Friday, and I’m really looking forward to it. I’m not sad today, because Alice lent me a book that I’ve been wanting to read, and I can start it tonight. I’m not sad today, because the letters ‘INST’ are now permanently in my Wreck This Journal, so I can always look back at them. I’m not sad today, because there’s no reason to be.
For all of these reasons and more, I can confidently say, that I am most definitely not sad today.

singingthroughthestorm:

I’m not sad today.

This photo is so cheesy, but I don’t even care that I look silly, my hair’s a mess and I’m wearing scruffy clothes. Plus I never smile with my teeth, so that’s gotta be a good thing, right? I’ve been following the INST blog for a while now and I love it, so I thought that today I would make my own contribution :)

I’m not sad today because although I look a little creepy, I look genuinely happy.
I’m not sad today, because after hours of work, I’ve finally finished that damn history coursework, and I’m actually quite happy with it.
I’m not sad today, because I had a heart to heart with my best friend, and I know that she’s always going to be here for me, and I love her for that. So much.
I’m not sad today, because I took part in a choir competition last weekend, and we watched the videos back today, and it actually sounded really, really good.
I’m not sad today, because the holidays start next week, which means I get to relax and do nothing for a while, hopefully without worrying about any exams or school work.
I’m not sad today, because I’m going out with my friends to the cinema on Friday, and I’m really looking forward to it.
I’m not sad today, because Alice lent me a book that I’ve been wanting to read, and I can start it tonight.
I’m not sad today, because the letters ‘INST’ are now permanently in my Wreck This Journal, so I can always look back at them.
I’m not sad today, because there’s no reason to be.

For all of these reasons and more, I can confidently say, that I am most definitely not sad today.



2 years ago on March 24, 2012

I, tbearlupin, am a worthwhile person, and 

tbearlupin:



2 years ago on March 23, 2012

I’m Not Sad Today. 

lubeelou:

Woke up this morning in a really good mood. Was up late last night talking to the bro-from-another-mo, and it was so good to talk to him. He’s been really quiet but the conversation we had was so funny. His phone decided to make a “conference call” giving him a load of options and he’s shouting at his phone “I AM PRESSING THREE!!!”. I was in stitches - cheered me up loads and by the sounds of it, he’s getting a pimp suit for his prom. I love that boy lots haha.

But, the sun is shining, gotta go to college but oh well this clay-making shizz needs to be done.

Have no money for lunch - boo! The bread is still frozen so no sarnie’s for Lou, but might grab a coffee and sit in the sunshine and do some college work in The Walks.
Sounds like a plan.
Better take my camera with me.  



2 years ago on March 23, 2012

idbehard:

seventeen months since I’ve self-harmed. that’s five hundred and seventeen days in a row that I haven’t cut, burned, or attempted.
today I am going to spend the afternoon with one of my best friends and tonight I’m going to see a bunch more of my favorite people.
I am NOT sad today.



2 years ago on March 23, 2012

suddenglory:

im having a good day so here this is me being a happy babby



2 years ago on March 23, 2012
kristenatorrrr:

In 2010, I watched my cousin get pulled out in a body bag and I constantly had nightmares of it.
Shortly after, I lost my uncle, unexpectedly, before I could tell him how much I love him.
I lost my friend due to cancer last year in September and always look at her facebook still having a hard time sinking in that she’s gone.
In January, I lost someone extremely close to me. I visited him in the hospital as much as I could. I held him when he cried and was always holding his hand through everything. I kissed his cheeks countless times and constantly told him everything was going to be okay. I made him smile and laugh as much as I could. I miss him more than words can explain and a day does not go by where I do not think about him.
I met someone who got my mind off things. He made me smile even when I was upset. I felt like everything would be fine because I had him and he made me happy.
We broke up a few days ago and it really sucks. It’s not fun being broken up with when you still have a lot of feelings for the other person. But it’s okay. We’re still best friends, and we’re still here for each other. He means a lot to me. :)
Everything’s been hitting pretty hard these past few years and it hasn’t been easy on me. I’m terrible at discussing my problems, but I finally reached out. Without my cousin Katelyn, I don’t know what I would do. She boosts my confidence and reminds me everything will be perfectly fine, no matter what life throws at you. It’s what shapes us into who we are. It’s what makes us stronger.
I can proudly say that I’m happy. :)
My loved ones never left. They’re with me everyday, and I know that. Everything happens for a reason. It’s beautiful outside, and summer is coming up soon which I couldn’t be any more excited for. :)

kristenatorrrr:

In 2010, I watched my cousin get pulled out in a body bag and I constantly had nightmares of it.

Shortly after, I lost my uncle, unexpectedly, before I could tell him how much I love him.

I lost my friend due to cancer last year in September and always look at her facebook still having a hard time sinking in that she’s gone.

In January, I lost someone extremely close to me. I visited him in the hospital as much as I could. I held him when he cried and was always holding his hand through everything. I kissed his cheeks countless times and constantly told him everything was going to be okay. I made him smile and laugh as much as I could. I miss him more than words can explain and a day does not go by where I do not think about him.

I met someone who got my mind off things. He made me smile even when I was upset. I felt like everything would be fine because I had him and he made me happy.

We broke up a few days ago and it really sucks. It’s not fun being broken up with when you still have a lot of feelings for the other person. But it’s okay. We’re still best friends, and we’re still here for each other. He means a lot to me. :)

Everything’s been hitting pretty hard these past few years and it hasn’t been easy on me. I’m terrible at discussing my problems, but I finally reached out. Without my cousin Katelyn, I don’t know what I would do. She boosts my confidence and reminds me everything will be perfectly fine, no matter what life throws at you. It’s what shapes us into who we are. It’s what makes us stronger.

I can proudly say that I’m happy. :)

My loved ones never left. They’re with me everyday, and I know that. Everything happens for a reason. It’s beautiful outside, and summer is coming up soon which I couldn’t be any more excited for. :)



2 years ago on March 22, 2012

I’m Not Sad Today. 

lubeelou:

Woke up this morning in a really good mood. Was up late last night talking to the bro-from-another-mo, and it was so good to talk to him. He’s been really quiet but the conversation we had was so funny. His phone decided to make a “conference call” giving him a load of options and he’s shouting at his phone “I AM PRESSING THREE!!!”. I was in stitches - cheered me up loads and by the sounds of it, he’s getting a pimp suit for his prom. I love that boy lots haha.

But, the sun is shining, gotta go to college but oh well this clay-making shizz needs to be done.

Have no money for lunch - boo! The bread is still frozen so no sarnie’s for Lou, but might grab a coffee and sit in the sunshine and do some college work in The Walks.
Sounds like a plan.
Better take my camera with me.